The Fat Years

My first year of college I was able to lose some weight. Not the healthy way!!! The dorm I lived in was 3 flights down , so if I wanted to go anywhere I had to run up 3 flights of stairs. And the food was NASTY so I ate maybe once a day. after my first year I was down to a size 10. I have no idea what my weight was, but I do know I liked the way I looked. Then the next year of college I had a job doing telemarketing. I hated that job! All I did was sit around and call people that did not want to talk to me. Every night I got a Mountain Dew and some peanut M&Ms to keep me from falling asleep on the job. My weight stared to go up, as you can imagine!!!
Skip a few years, college is done and I am still around the 170 number. I graduate and go home proud to have accomplished college and start my life of teaching. I LOVED teaching, but it was very stressful!!! Coupled with the stress of teaching and a terrible break up with a man I thought I was going to marry only led to eating :( Once again my weight went up, by now I was in the 190s!
After one year of teaching I went to summer school to work on getting my Masters. It is there that I found the love of my life!!! After 14 short months we were Husband and Wife! We were and still are so much in love!!! With that love and comfort came more eating. This time out of joy and happiness! I was also on birth control at the time. My weight went into the 200s and I was mortified! I never wanted to be there, so the yo-yo diets began! I did Weight Watchers, the Cabbage Soup Diet, Slim Fast, and many more! It would take too long to list them all! Of course I lost weight at first but as soon as stopped I was right back where I had started!
Then we were blessed to find out we were expecting. To me that was a license to eat, and eat I did! I ate everything and anything my little heart desired!  My weight went up but it was all bay right? Wrong! After my 6 week check up after my first son was born I was 250. I could not believe it! I tried to lose weight again but I was nursing so it was very hard. Only 9 months after my sone was born I was pregnant again. This time the Lord blessed us with a little girl! Then after that another son, and then another girl! It seemed like as soon as I would start to lose some weight we would be expecting again. Don't get me wrong, I love my babies with everything that is in me, but I want to be healthy for them!!!

A little about me

I am a wife to the most wonderful husband a girl could ask for. He is always so loving and kind! I am also a Mommy to 4 adorable children *smile* ranging for age 6 months to 5yrs. They keep me busy and always guessing. They are my life and I wouldn't have it any other way!!! Most importantly I am a Christian! I strive to live in such a way that will bring glory to my Lord and Saviour! Without Him there would be no reason to go on.
 This blog is for me to be able to come and vent, praise, and document my weight loss journey. I am not very eloquent, but this is me just being real! This has been a battle for me since I was a teenager! As a small child my Mom always called me "Skinny Minny" but once I became a teenager my weight became a problem. I went to a small Christian school and our PE class, in Jr and Sr high, which was only once a week had very little exercise in it. Most weeks it was cleaning the church for the next service. It was also looked down on for girls to play sports, with it being not famine and all. (I do not agree with this at all!) Along with my lack of activity, our family also stated having problems. My dad started using drugs. That caused a lot of arguments between my parents! We had a rule in our home, "What happens at the house, stays at the house!" Needless to say all my feelings were suppressed with food, chocolate milkshakes to be exact! This lasted my whole teenage life, even after I left for college! That is when I started trying to lose what I had put on. I was not huge (in my eyes) but I was fat and needed to lose weight. I was around 170, and for my little 5'1 frame that was too big...